Wed, Thurs and Friday

What can I say? I've been a bit unmotivated lately. I could tell I wasn't feeling good. I ran Weds. in the hot, humid heat at 7am and it was brutal. It was only 3 miles and I could hardly make that. I had to take at least 2 walk breaks. It was too humid. I'm amazed I finished in 39 minutes my best lap was 12:27 with an average of 13:03. Thurs. I had 4 miles and the weather was a lot better. Cooler without the humidity. I still struggled with what I had to do. I did finish and I had to use my walk breaks. I was nice and slow on the 1st, thinking I've been going too fast at the beginning and managed to have 3 more laps at 13:20. I thought maybe it's because I'm just not feeling inspired lately. If it wasn't for the financial backing I think I would have serious thoughts of not doing this. (I knew I'd come to this point. When can I quit doing this?) In running they call it the wall, I think I've hit the wall psychologically. My runs aren't that great, I've had some really bad one's lately, and my heart just isn't in it. Today is my day of rest and of course I woke with a sinus infection which I knew I was getting. I now know why this week was so hard physically to complete.