What's happening?

Well were do I start? Friday I was scheduled to run, Bill had to go into the office so a morning run was out. I was having a garage sale to raise more money so a midday run was out. By the time Bill was home it seemed too late to go run 3 and wake up early for the team run on Sat. So I skipped Friday night. Sat I woke up scared to death, 7 miles scheduled. 7!!!! I had only done 5 at most. I went early walked around to warm-up. We had to tell everyone who showed up our name, race and pace. When they got to me they thought I was joking when I said I was slower running than my friends are walking. I'm not kidding they are faster. They made us start out slow for a warm-up (which is really my pace) then get faster at 3/4mile. I continued with my run 4 minutes/walk 1 which made the group I started with slowly draft away. Then I was getting passed by the faster group. Thank god the walkers went the opposite way I don't think I could have handled it when they started to pass me. I was doing good at mile 2 they handed out water and again at 4 at which pointed I just refilled my water bottle. Mind you I'm the only runner out there, not one team member in sight and at 4.25mile marker I don't know what happened. If it was the pressure from being the LAST runner, the thought of 3 more why am I doing this again, or thought of a recent open mouth insert foot incident but I just started crying which lead to hyperventilating. I've never done that before. I had to skip a whole run interval and walk covering my mouth with my hand and try to calm down. I swear people going by thought I had Asama. Even with that whole episode that mile was 14 minutes. I did finish the full 7 miles in 1hour and 35 minutes which in retrospect is not much compared to 26.2 miles.

I was reading one of my friends blogs and she started talking about how she's got a guardian angel running with her. I don't think she's crazy at all I sometimes think I've got someone helping me train. I think mine helps me in a different way. I think he helps to give me obstacles so that I will be prepared for anything. I believe he throws the worst at me because he knows I can take it and it'll make me stronger. I was thinking about my 7 mile run and I think at the hyper moment the one thing I was so upset about, I was alone completely alone. And I still finished. Yet another hurdle covered. Thanks!!