I'm back

Let's see where did I leave off, I ran 3 miles on Weds. It was horrible. I had a breakdown just couldn't believe I was signed to run a marathon. After talking with Bill, I calmed down. I was putting too much pressure on myself. I didn't want to let anyone down especially Bill. I wasn't sure I could really run 26.2 miles. You know you can hear something a gillion times but until someone else says it, it really doesn't sink in. I was crazy scaried of running the whole thing, but I don't have to run the whole thing. I just have to finish it. I'm not worried too much about my time I only want to finish in the time limit 6 1/2 hours. Thurs. by the time I was able to run, it was scary thunderstorms outside so I thought it would be o.k. to skip which I felt bad about. But it gave me time to recoupe alittle more. Fri was a day off. Sat we had an early run time with the team, we met at 7:30 and had to run 10 miles. Half way through, it was way to hot. I know I didn't eat enough that morning to sustain that run and at one point I just kept walking I couldn't run anymore. I truely think I walked 4.5 miles, and I was o.k. with that. Finally I was o.k. with it. I finished in 2 hours and 18 minutes. People ask me how I did after the runs and my answer is always the same," I finished it." Because that's what I truely care about. Sunday I had to run 3-4 miles. I woke up at 6:30 and it was already too hot. So I went back to bed. I cheated later that day I went to the gym and ran on the treadmill. Mindless running I call it. I figured since I was cheating I'd do 4 miles on an incline and run as much of it as possible. It was good I finished all four miles with only one walk break long enough to swallow some water. I took it really slow too. Monday was an off day and I was wondering why my thighs hurt so much. That takes us to today. This morning I ran my scheduled 5 miles. I was doing really good too. I figured out why my thighs hurt on the hills. I was in a real groove. I felt so good I didn't want to stop and walk. I did have to take one walk break, I was starting to see stars. I was so bummed. As soon as they faded less than half a .25 mile, I started to run again and was able to run the rest of the way. I finished in 1 hour and 4 mins and was very proud of myself. I hope I'm able to keep that same feeling when I run the next time.